I'm Peachy and yes, i'm CHOCOHOLIC! ^_^

Saranghae… (I love you)

“Saranghaeyo, oppa!”

I love you although the feeling’s not mutual.. for now, I will keep it all to myself.. I have decided to set it aside for something I cherish more… I do hope that when the time comes, I could still remember this feeling.. ‘Cause it’s one feeling I’ve never felt before.. A bittersweet substance intoxicating my body, mind and soul…

Big Lady… (adapted from Merlinda Bobis’ The Sadness Collector)

She’s getting bigger by the moment.. I do hope she won’t explode.. No, not tonight! Please, not tonight!

There’s just too much sadness around.. And big lady keeps on munching on them..

Hmmm.. Does it make her happy.. to eat all the people’s sadness all the time?

Or does it make her really sad, too?

Taking in all this sadness, to make people happy again..

But what about her? Is she happy doing all these?

Poor Big Lady, with all the sadness around, she might burst any moment..

She might have already had enough of all this sadness..

Just like whenever we get full and feel like vomiting after eating too much..

Just like how a balloon pops whenever it’s already had more than enough air in it..

Even a sponge lets go of the liquid it once absorbed..

But what about Big Lady? What happens to her? Doesn’t she get sick after eating all this sadness?

I don’t want her to burst.. No, not her..

She’s helped us all endure our pains.. Taking them all in for our sake..

I do hope I could do something to help her.. I hope we all could do something to help her..

But how?

In a world where sadness cannot simply be avoided, how do I keep her from bursting?

When in fact, I too am one of those people who feel sadness..

That’s it.. If I were to help her.. I need to start from within myself..

Feeling sadness.. It’s really okay.. It’s normal for us to feel it..

It’s one of the things making us human..

But you know, it would be better if we would learn to do something about this sadness..

Use this feeling as a motivation to feel happy again, as an inspiration to achieve something, as a drive to feel a sense of fulfillment..

Big Lady.. Oh! I can imagine just how happy she would be..

If only we’d learn from this and actually do something about the sea of sadness from around us..

But then, of course.. It would be too much to expect everyone to do so..

I’m sure not everyone could simply move on and live a happy life all in an instant..

But this is a challenge I would like to raise for all those who want to help save Big Lady.. for all those who want to help themselves.. for all those who want to feel happy once again..

Happiness and sadness are not mere emotions we feel every once in a while..

They are also choices we make.. Paths we take.. Roads on which we travel in a journey called “Life”…

Tears…

Tears…

They fall whenever we’re crying…

Sometimes because we’re sad…

Other times when we’re angry…

Or feeling hopeless and frustrated…

Rarely, whenever we’re happy….

Salty droplets of water coming out of our eyes…

Soon, turning into an ocean of tears…

How I wonder if it would make a change, if those were tears were purely shed through happiness..

Tears start to fill my eyes..

Am I sad? I don’t know…

All I know is that this is the first time that I’ve shed these tears for the very same reason they’re starting to fall right now…

Sure, I’ve had experienced so many things before…

And had shed tears because of those…

But never had I shed these tears…

These tears, which until now feels so unfamiliar to me…

For with it comes a different feeling…

Heart skips beating…

Breaking? Denying!

Tears falling…

‘Cause even deep inside.. my heart is weeping…

Like an amnesiac, I will soon forget…

Like an amnesiac, I will soon forget…

All these pain.. tears.. heartaches..

They will all be gone..

Just you wait, one day you’ll see..

I will forget you..

By then, I wouldn’t remember you..

I wouldn’t know you..

I wouldn’t have seen you..

And then things will turn out fine..

I could start again..

Treat you as if nothing had happened..

Only by that time, there won’t be anything linking us together..

Two strangers we would be..

Just where we have started..

By then, maybe it would be nice to only be strangers… don’t you think?

Why is it that every time I check out my tumblr account, I end up being disappointed… Seeing all these posts about hunger games… Reminding me that I STILL HAVEN’T READ THE TRILOGY!!!!!!! =((

I need to focus… But how?!?!